New Year 2026 Stuff

This post is hard for me because of things that changed drastically at the end of 2025 heading into 2026. My sister went back to her other job after being fired from the job we relocated to Florida for. We had to move so that Karen could travel to work in two states. This resulted in looking for a place to live. My sister Karen found this place that advertised that some of their townhomes were handicap (HC) accessible. This included a wheel in shower, HC toilets, lower kitchen counters, and ease to leave the home with no barriers. A dream home. When we signed the lease, we pointed out some things during the walk through that were not compliant in a HC accessible home. The toilet was a standard 15” toilet, no grab bars around the toilet area, the blinds wands were 2’ from the top I could not open/close the blinds, and a few other things.

The issues took so much time and constant contacting the management office it took a huge toll on me and the joy right out of enjoying the new home. Some of the issues were finally taken care of just the other day. It took a whole month and half to do the fixes, On top of that, my sister was struggling to breathe, and we thought it was a bad asthma attack, but she was admitted to the hospital for 5 days. Karen was diagnosed with congestive heart failure (CHF). My fears escalated. The one constant fear and worrisome thought kept nagging at me and still is, how will I be able to do things by myself if something happens to my sister? I do not have a backup plan in place. I am skipping out on so much that happened that week. I’m just not ready to write about my thoughts and feelings. I feel like it would make me feel selfish for thinking and feeling this way.

While Karen was hospitalized, I had to try to do things around the home like unpacking and making the home livable while Karen was in the hospital. I have a wonderful friend that came up to help me with the house and visit Karen in the hospital because I did not have transportation set up or available for me. This helped ease some of my fears while Karen was having procedures and medicines to deal with the CHF. She came home and I am treading lightly. I do not know how to handle this situation right now and still have such nagging fearful thoughts I cannot rest well. Both of us have serious health issues. I have another friend flying here next week and hopefully we will be able to unpack a few more boxes. I am trying hard to stay positive and grateful, it is difficult right now.