It is no secret that I have been struggling for years with my MS and trying to get better by a healthier food plan, resources, neurologists (years of getting nowhere), aids to make my life easier, finding help at home with the simplest tasks that many people literally take for granted everyday. I feel very lucky a few of my “current tribe” peeps (you know who you are 💪❤️💪) that help me and makes things a little bit easier in my life. My life is very different now.

I truly hate the word “privilege” and for me this word is abused in such a way that it harms and hurts. Sometimes I do see good in the word, but it is not often. In this one instance, I will use this word. Life is a privilege and we do abuse it. Life can change in a second. Altered events in time, when we plan our daily life, a phone call, a gunshot, a serious health diagnosis, a death, violence, losing a job, losing health insurance, living on government income, no money, thinking we are indispensable, life and personal abuse, breakups, a pregnancy, loss of a child, loss of a family member or partner, fires, movements in cultures, discrimination, mean people, loving people, the infinite list of life reasons…

When I was diagnosed with MS at 28 years old and have met and talked to many people who have MS about their experiences, struggles, and pain from family and friends lack of support and empathy, I thought no way, the decline of my “tribe support”, my mobility and my independence would ever happen to me. Ha! Boy was I ignorant! I took advantage of my life privilege. Life does stop, things change so fast, arguments, disagreements and sometimes devastating outcomes with family, relationships, and friends. We crash and burn, sometimes so badly that it is life altering and often not reversible. I see and read how people photograph themselves, doing things like walking, running, driving, biking, cooking, having kids (I wanted 4, by the way), making a life, family and more. Then, I see people doing stuff, spewing stupid words so recklessly, blaming, pointing fingers, hurting others, deaths, senseless killings, brutality, the excessive videoing of violent acts of abuse to people and animals, bullying others, displaying self entitlement that just blows me away especially in these weird scary times and not thinking of their “life privilege”. It does comes back and bites you in the ass. Karma.

So I guess what I’m trying to say, after my day, today, October 1, 2020, I think I had an eye opening kind of day. Life is a privilege, be mindful of what your life choices, thoughts, actions are. Life does change.