I never imagined that at my age, I would be living on social security, struggling to survive, always in fear that the government can take all my earnings away because I didn’t follow their rules for something. I never dreamed how hard it would be to find a place to live, get groceries, do laundry, clean, go out, cook, bathe and even type. I always thought I will be able to do all of those things because my MS was not like others. I never will be like those who are in wheelchairs or bed ridden. I now have to find people and resources to help me with the simplest tasks. Today, I just found out that the person who helps me clean my apartment cannot do it anymore. So, now I must find someone, along with looking for a ramp so I’m able to go outside, work, studying for class, look for resources to help me, the list goes on and on. Typical day for me, stay strong, do not let the fatigue take over. Keep smiling…

Because of all of these struggles I try and learn to appreciate the things we often take for granted. Waking up in the morning and having breakfast (my most favorite meal). I am able to see, I can still walk some, I can smile through my pain, I’m still able to help others, and most of all I am alive. When things don’t go as planned, I try not to scream “why me” or “this sucks” I work hard at not becoming angry and defeated and try to find peace, joy and always remember there is hope. I will be ok.

Bound and determined not to let my MS kick my butt!