Today is October 4, 2009 there has been no improvement in how I am feeling. I think I have gone beyond frustration. I have given up and have accepted that I may always have these feelings of tingling and achy muscles. The weather has changed from warm sunny days to cold crisp fall days. Fall changes to winter and then a whole new set of pain pops up. I feel like I am sitting on a bag of ice for the next 6 months. Then spring comes and I begin to thaw out. Then I deal with summer and people’s complaints on the air conditioning – ohhhh it’s so cold! Too bad! Put on a sweater. You can warm up but I can’t control my body temperature.  Where can I go so I feel completely normal? I wish I can find a place that stays 70 degrees all year round and people do not complain about the temperatures. . I think I would be a much happier person. I was in my facebook the other day and all I saw was people complaining about how coolllllddddd it is outside. The temperature is 50 to 60 degrees. Puhleeze that is not cold. Cold is 20 and 30’s. Wake up and smell the apple cider!

I got a comment from an old friend, Myra – she seems to not be doing ok. I wonder if I am at that stage too with the pain of muscles and tingling. Because right now it has been over 2 months I have not seen any kind of improvement. What does this mean? Myra has decided to see her neurologist after all this time of trying out homopathic medicine. Maybe the homopathic way is not the way to go? I will have to see what see what she has to say. I am wondering to myself because MS is such a mysterious disease, there really is nothing anybody can do. Everyone suffers their own hell, their own pain. We just have to decide if we want the MS to control our life. I for one do not want to do that. MS is not going to control my life, I will not succumb to it. I need to stay strong mentally and physically so that I can do all the things I want to do.

I am leaving my blog today with this comment

Be Strong!