Have you ever wondered if things that happen in your life can trigger MS attacks? I happen to think so. I think that when things that are going on at work, home or even personally can trigger major attacks. What I mean by attacks to me are things like — I am so tired, I cannot do anything – all I want to do is sleep. My body hurts – tingles more – my legs tingle all the time now. Sometimes my hands do it too. So, what does this all  mean? I have no clue. Could be stress-related, could be MS related, could be diabetes related. I become so frustrated because when I go to the doctor, they cannot really pinpoint what it is that is causing these things. Often, I leave my physician’s office very frustrated and land up calling my doctor names like Dr. Idiot, ass-wipe and you have a degree and you were no help! Another annoying frustrating thing is people tell me you should go to the doctor and get some medicine, what medicine!?!? There is no medicine to take to make this go away!! Argh! I don’t know what is more frustrating to me is when people – yes I know they mean well, but – shut up! If you don’t know – don’t say anything. It is so much better that way.

Yesterday was a prime example – of is it the MS or is it because of something else. However, I did have a bad breakfast the day before that caused me to become ill. But after becoming violently ill, my body began to hurt. So was the getting sick over bad food the cause of my body becoming increasingly in pain? Now it is 6:03 am this morning – my arms and legs still hurt. Interesting. So is there a theory to all of this, I don’t think so, I think that I will always have these questions that people who have MS ask me. People always ask me, yes I have MS, my doctor did not tell me much, I had to do research and gather literature to find out what MS is, what I am going to go through etc. Then those that talk to me because they have MS too often say, but you have it, and it is so much better that I read or talk to someone who actually has the disease.  

Sometimes I experience other things like when I am reading for a while and look up from a book, I become dizzy. Is it because I had my head bent a certain way that caused my body to react a different way? Other things will be like I need to climb on a chair to get something from the top shelf. Once I’m up there, how do I get back down – my body has frozen and cannot move – so…… is it the MS balance thing that is causing me to be frozen standing on a chair for a few minutes willing my body to step down carefully? One time I was waking up from sleeping a full 6 hours with no wakeys – I had to lay in bed for a few minutes because I wasn’t sure I could get up. Is it because I was not moving for a long time my body decides to be log and cannot move but have to roll out of bed to try and move towards the bathroom? When I ask my doctor these things – he says I don’t know, maybe. Hence, Dr. Idiot – another useless thing he says to me.

Anyway – enough thinking things to death sometimes – and focus on the here and now. Today is a new day. I am feeling so much better than yesterday minus the stupid tingling and buzzing my body goes through. I am traveling today so hopefully I will enjoy my day.

Be confident!